THANK YOU FOR MY FRIENDS (please read) https://Free App Dating/topic/show/164834

"And from this strange instrument came sounds that made her tremble with joy and with love. As the song went on, as the light grew stronger, she fell hopelessly in love with this bold trumpeter who had awakened her from her dreams. The dreams of night were gone. New dreams of day were upon her. She knew that she was full of sensations she had never had before--feelings of delight and ecstasy and wonder."
By E.B. White from The Trumpet of the Swan

~Thoughts~

My mind is numb
but still aches
with the fullness
of my thoughts.
My body shivers
as I try to retrieve
some words to type
on the screen.
I will never understand
the complexity of the situation.
There are no answers to this.
There will only be
my thoughts until
they slowly slip
from my head.
And as they do,
the answer that
I seek for myself
will be there.
Just as they are now
but are too cloudy to see.

tanya 9-5-08


Well Behaved Women Rarely Make History!

One day you just might see my name on the ballot for presidency!


I am currently only on here for the friends that I have already made. I don't need anymore at this time. If you want to get to know me, you will find me in the forums.



*...and the day came when the risk it took to remain tightly closed in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom...* ~Anais Nin


Some advice for those still looking for the ONE:

I personally feel that the biggest prevention to any kind of relationship abuse is to have a healthy self-esteem and know what a healthy relationship is. All to often, we don't have examples of what a healthy relationship looks like and due to life experience we may not know our own self-worth.

Just like all social issues, there are a number of different factors that pay into whether or not someone gets involved in an abusive relationship.

Things that everyone should know or keep in mind about getting into relationships:

1. Red flags: past patterns of a potential partner, criminal history, drug use/abuse history, mental health history, non-monogamous dating patterns, lifestyle (partier, drinker, anti-social), family history of conflict

[yes, people change, but not over night! it takes years of counseling and professional help for individuals with above issues to cope and deal with them]

2. Knowing yourself: I have said this and I will continue to say it.... You cannot expect anyone to love you if you first dont love yourself. If you are desparately seeking a relationship, you will end up in a desparate relationship.

[Only you can fill your own voids, not a person or things can do that]

3. You are your own person, and should be able to stand on your own two feet at all times!

[Co-dependency will leave you down a dangerous path!]



"I'll tell you in the morning," she said. "When the first light comes into the sky and the sparrows stir and the cows rattle their chains, when the rooster crows and the stars fade, when early cars whisper along the highway, you look up here and I'll show you something. I will show you my masterpiece." From Charlotte's Web by E.B. White


~Rose~
As I walk into the door
the amber glow of the flames
paint my skin.
I proceed on a path of
cool silken rose petals.
The path leads me to
a satin covered bed.
A satin nightgown lays
upon a petal covered bed.
I slip onto the satin and
lay down upon the cool petals.
As I lay still upon the coolness,
and feel the caress of a silken rose bud.
The coolness of the plant is twisted along
my skin from my feet to my face.
Where my lips are met by his warm kiss.

tanya 5-25-08



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Alfred Lord Tennyson:
'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
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~Fairytales~

What's wrong with
fairytales?

What's wrong with
dreaming?

What's wrong with
wanting to feel absolutely completely in love?

What's wrong with
wanting to feel your heart race?

What's wrong with
yearn for someone's touch?

What's wrong with
craving someone's kiss?

What's wrong with
being excited to hear someone's voice?

What's wrong with
wanting to spend every second with someone?

What's wrong with
me?

tanya 9-8-08



song that I want to share with everyone --->Otis Redding - (sittin' on)the dock of the bay
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wzrXc68gNjQ
I can listen to this song over and over again for hours!



About me:
I am a lot simpler than I appear. I enjoy the simples things such as walks in the park, playing tickle monster with my son, and doing little things for my partner (like making dinner, leaving them love notes in their pockets, or texting to say hi). I enjoy the sun on my face and the wind in my hair. I find that it is relaxing to hang out on a blanket on a warm summer day, just listening to the birds. I like camping, hiking, and canoeing... oh and I love swimming. As much I as I can be a tomboy, and get my hands dirty, it is still nice to dress up every once in a while and try something new like a concert, play or museum.

My life:
I am goal driven, motivated, determined, compassionate, passionate, silly and I am sure that I could make the list longer.

Education:
I will graduate in May 09 with a Bacholors in Social Work. I plan on going right into graduate school. My focus will be on macro social work: policy/legislation, organizations, evaluation, and research. I hope to open a domestic violence shelter which will support all individuals effected by domestic violence/initimate partner violence. After gaining in field experience, I hope to seek tenture at a four-year college/university.
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I texted a handful of my close friends to describe me in 3 words and here is the responses:
Traci - Mother, Smart, and Strong
Courtney - Beautiful, Determined, and Dependable
Hassan - Brave, Insightful and Beautiful
Jeff - Sweet, Understanding, and Good Listener
Rae - Determined, Masterful, and Sassy
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What I am looking for: Right now the only man that I want in my life is my 5 year old son. When I am ready to bring someone else into it, it will be known.

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More tidbits about me:
Hhhhhmmmm..... I brush my teeth while in the shower. I am an advocate for gay rights. I like cherry wine. I have great friends! I love living in the city even though I am a country gal at heart, I still rock at karaoke, I will go to Harvard for graduate school (I am determined!)

I like anime... don't know much about it. There is just something about it that I find alluring.

This song seems to ring true in a lot of ways... Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wVyggTKDcOE

My friend, Mary, who is a military brat, wrote this on her myspace and it touched me "Separate your feelings about the war from the troops-they aren't asking to go-it's their job." I just wanted to share that with you all!

xoxox
tanya